just friends........


Okay......I know this is another theraputic blog post. Rest assured its the last one. She called me up just now. Apparently in my drunken stupor last night, I managed to type a very long and informative message which I then sent to her. There was a bit of shouting here and there and a bit of sniffling thrown in for good measure. Sorted out our problems and came to the conclusion that "we" will never be, and that I should just get over her. She lovingly reassures me that she does "like" me alot and its just that she is not in a position to commit because of other shit thats going on in her life. I was just silent most of the time.....was just happy to finally hear her voice after a long time. God....what's wrong with me!? Why the fuck do I like her so much? Just another one of those questions in my life to which the answer will never be known. It's over. The end. Fin. Kapput. *closes eyes and takes a deep breath* It's her loss not mine. I hope she sorts out her life. Maybe in another time and place, "we" could have been or will be? Ya never know. Nice knowing you....

thephatone

Whats a guy to do.......

@ the moment, according to mahangu im toxicaly disinhibited. With the help of course of my trusty glass of vodka and red bull. Currently i've been reduced to a puddle of tears care of my so called 'girlfriend'. I guess the term drifting apart could be applied to what our 'relationship' is experiencing at the moment. Those who read my last post should know that she stood me up on saturday on the grounds of family problems and to deal with that i've turned to alcohol. To put it bluntly I haven't been sober since. She hasn't called or messaged. Well if you count messages that just say 'good morning......' or 'good night' actual messages then I might be wrong. But if she could take time from her busy schedule and open up to me and tell me whats actualy going on then I might understand. Doesn't she know that im goin crazy over the fact that I haven't seen her for more than a week now! She is the only good thing thats happened in my life so far...... At least that's what I used to think. Now i can safely say that this is the lowest point in my life..... Some of you reading this post might think what a stupid fuck im being. I can't help it. So many posts have showed up on kottu about theraputic blog posting, bare with me readers this is one of them. God! i don't know how long this is gonna last....... am I eventually gonna give up on on our "realationship" Or am I gonna tough it out and see what happens? Give me a few more days, 2 bottles of smirnoff, and a 6 pack of red bulls and I'll get back to you. Wow I've really fallen head over heels over this girl. If she only knew what i'm going through. Comment if you want..... I'll probably regret i posted this tomorrow morning! God wish i had a joint right now. Which reminds me i should get more weed as I'm running low. Mental note: Call suranga tomorrow and get more WEED!!!! Ok .....good night Sri Lanka. Im gonna wait till the three cans of red bull i drank ware off then try and get some sleep..... Ciao...

thephatone

Drunk...........
well it's 10:51 to be exact. pm mind you. im alone at home on a saturday night. drowning myself in a solution of vodka and redbull.... ahhh sweet redbull. red bull gives you wiiiiiiiings! anyways my better half stood me up tonight. so i compensate by drinking my problems away. might seem wrong to some of you but hey what can i say.......alcohol helps you deal. A shout out to Juhani! thanx for last night..... food was great....ok im gonna go and finish my vodka bottle. oh BTW ...........................................of fuck forgot what i was about to say. damn ganja killing off my brain cells!

thephatone

my weekend...

The past weekend starting from Friday marked the beginning of my three day liquid diet.
here's a detailed description of what went down....

Day 1 Friday
Venue : Waters Edge, Kanya's house
Alcohol consumed : 3/4 bottle of Bacardi, 1/4 Absolut, around 4 servings of Bombay Sapphire and sprite and how can I forget Uncle Peters Amazing Tequila triple sec garnished with fresh strawberries.... yummy
Interesting moments :

1. Singing my ass of at the sky lounge karaoke with my two equally drunk-as-skunks back up singers kan and ash.
2. Upul trying to 'get it on' with a sober Shaneen.
3. Me and Ash dancing like we were f***ing each other. Nothing new here.
4. Me and Ash doing the baila. What were we thinking! *curls up in a corner and dies*
   
5. Kanya and her exercise routine. "Thrust one two! Reach one two! and again!"
6. Singing the 'sober' song.
7. The usual excessive screaming and shouting.
   

Day 2 Saturday
Venue : Airport Garden Hotel
Alcohol consumed : 3/4 Red label
Interseting moments:

1. Convincing mum to buy me a pack of smokes. Very difficult FYI.
2. One of the finalists in the baila competition. I guess I have more rhythm in my feet when im under the influence of certain substances. hehe.
3. Coming home and mistaking my cold hard tiled floor for my perfectly soft and clean bed. Ouch.

Day 3 Sunday
Venue : Premadasa Stadium, Somewhere in Wattala, Mount Lavinia beach, BuBa, and one other seaside watering hole.
Alcohol consumed: 8 bottles of Arrack (shared between 6 people)
Interesting moments:

1. Trying to get booze in to the stadium. Very unsuccessful.
2. Finally deciding fuck it! Went to a friends place in wattala finished 6 of the 8 bottles and watched the match on the tube.
3. On the way to Mt. beach for some open air concert. Avon stealing an apple from cargills. Called him 'apple hora' the whole night.
4. Going to BuBa's to find there was no more food....since the rave that started saturday night finished like 8 that evening.
5. Finished the last bottle in some place Dennis called 'Bason aiyas'
6. Getting BLASTED by mum for coming home late.

Jesus....drinking on top of a hangover is probably not a good idea. ;-)
Sorry for not posting in ages. Just been one lazy SOB the past week.

If you had a more eventful weekend do drop a comment or 2.

thephatone

isn't this the most beautiful thing in the world!

Aaahhh..... nothing like a fresh pack of ciggies to start of your day. I couldn't survive a day without smoking. To hell with all the anti-smoking freaks out there. Im a smoker and i'm proud!
Here are a few things non-smokers always tell me in their pathetic attempt to deter me from sucking on my cancer sticks.

1. Smoking will cause you an early death from lung or heart disease.
   I've already made it to 19...plenty of non-smokers aren't that lucky...
   Define early. Dying at 70 instead of 80 doesn't strike me as dying an early death.
2. If someone does kiss you, it will be like kissing an ashtray.
   Never been accused of tasting like an ashtray...
   I've never known a smoker to taste like an ashtray.
3. Smoking turns your fingers yellow.
   Nope...no yellow fingers here...
   Nor here.
4. Smoking stinks.
   Freshest air in the world I say...
5. People will not want to be near you when you are smoking.
   I beg to differ. Whenever I smoke I seem to attract people.
   Indeed. I'd be inclined to get closer, as a matter of fact. "Hey machang can i have a fag?"
   

WTF!? Mp3 Shoes?!
Yup, they're real! According to DaDafootwear Im not even sure what needs to said here, basically it's shiny "Code M" sneakers from Dada footwear that pump the tunes to the included wireless headphones (within a 30m radius) or out of built-in speakers while you're busy being that baller you are. They charge via USB, sport built-in controls, and yes they are a pair of shoes. Would you buy these?

Pinks new video "Stupid Girls"
I love pinks new video. She rocks! She makes fun of Paris Hilton, Jessica Simpson, Lindsay Lohan and Mary-kate. She also tackles issues like bulemia too! *laughs hysterically* watch it here. Enjoy!

Loved & lost or never have loved at all?

'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

This is an old phrase taken out of Alfred Tennyson's poem 'In Memoriam:27'. Do you agree with it? Is it really better to never have loved at all? In my opinion i think it's better to have loved and lost. Most things in our lives are temporary, and eventually nothing in life is ever going to be permanent. Everyone suffers loss in one form or the other, be it emotional or material.
With that in mind loving someone or getting in to a relationship where you know its doomed (doomed meaning that certain factors prevent the relationship from "going anywhere") from the start is really not that bad. Don't be afraid to fall in love. See where it takes you. If its meant to be its meant to be, and if it isn't well you'll always have that 'memorable dinner' or 'that special kiss'.
But what if you meet "the one"? The one person you know is your soulmate, the someone you want to spend the rest of your life and grow old with? Do you just take your chances and see where 'it' goes knowing that its never going to happen? Is it better to go through the unimaginable pain and suffering of loss or stop it from ever happening so you dont get hurt in the end? Well thats a tough one.....
The right thing to do is to stop it from ever happening, thus sparing yourself the heartache and misery that comes with breaking up. But protecting yourself like this all the time shuts you out from love, eventually ending up a miserable, lonely individual destined to live alone for the rest of their time on this planet. I say if you can deal with with breaking up go with loving & losing. Spending time with that special someone though limited has to be worth something. Hey theres always just being "friends", right? leave a comment if you want.... i'd like to know how other people feel about this subject.

thephatone

Sway Gets voted out.....
Why so soon! *sob* I guess his last Performance wasn't that good but it definitely was better than (as null called him) "Chicken Little"! I know this post may seem a bit late I just had to post it.
Did anyone else watching result night of AI on Friday and think Paula was drunk/high/wasted? The Woman was talking *SHIT*. Anyways what a week of disappointments its been. To add to sway being prematurely kicked out of AI, I went to school today thinking that this Tuesday was a poya day. My dreams of sleeping late and just "chillin" were shattered when I was told by a fellow student that I was terribly mistaken, and that the next poya is not due for another week! Also Brokeback losing to Crash For Best Picture? Why?! Oh cruel world! On lighter note, I stumbled across a blog which highlights some of the Philippines more risque female bloggers.
I was totally oblivious to the fact that there is a huge community of Filipino bloggers out there.
Click here. Enjoy!

thephatone